..daripada "hampa"utk"kami"...

hari ne mcm hari2 sblomnya mood rajin datang.....aq pn go on la kms2 ap yg patut,,,then aq tjmpa 1 box yg sgt mnarik perhatian aq..likely udah more than 1 year kot aq x sentuh box tu....tetiba terselit something dsebalik wall box tu......hahaha,sekeping surat tulus iklas dari seorg sahabat......briefly la..nama dya faizatul atiqah bt malek...opss! dya x ska buh "bt"straight nm ayh trus....bla baca balik surat ne, sgala memory lama btandang kembali......cheeewahhh........pahit,maung,manis,kelat,ska,duka,ngantok......pernah kmi lalui....count back crimes yg kmi wat...fuh...mmg....emmm,bole bela la...tp jrg kntoi..these, i got on my 17th birthday...2 years ago..em....etonnnnn,,,,,nk lagi..hahahaha!!

...lawak ja..

cantik luar,cntik dlm,cntik dgr cini......
kalu cntik lukis,sy msty nak lagi.....

i got it.......

it colourfull if we can feel together

hari ni aq blajar smthing  yg x de kt mn2 pn,,,, i learn by own kot...kejujuran dgn diri ooooo,it very precious..sblum tu mcm2 ad dlm pala otak.....bkn ap, ego tyme2 kot tggi..thp dewa noh..mlanya aq mmg pndg remeh bnda neh...aloh,, it nothing la and not a crucial mistake  pom....then,hari2 aq pn blalu ngn selamba....tp mcm mn pn hati aq  rs mcm ad yg x kna...owg x nmpk la hya aq yg thu mcm mn.....ishhh.. kalo p rs cm..ish x smart la,kn cikit pn takot,tarak guna...dn..aq pn biarkn lg...but it still disturbing n irritated  mind aq..ok,the solution is  take as much time as i needed to flash back about my past...ohhhh tuhan,kegagalan dtg btimpa2,salah satu sebabnya x blaku jujur dgn diri sdiri walaupun ia hya bnda yg sgt remeh...skecil biji ceri...wahhhhh!!!kalu hari2 aq kumpul biji ceri n campare ngan umur,,,,,??slagi tu aq biarkan,,,ia akn ikut....dn ikot aq ,,mbey bole bawak mati kot..how about the others mistakes....jenuh la bertan2...dlm sedar x sedar salama ne aq dok usung kesalahan2 yg kdg2 aq pn x sedar bla aq wat dn xthu smpi bla akn selesai.... back to the topic,slps muhasabah diri sat,aq pn set  target to finish as well as  this week jgk,,x kra mesty wat,,tp dgaan plg berat nk mlwn ngn part negatif/nafsu/syaitan yg sntiasa mengekor,,ish,,," ag x tkot ka kn maki kaw2 sat g,kna basuh  sejam ka',,,dn rs tgugt pn mjelma..tp dek krn niat yg aq psg bhari-hari,aq truskn lgkah...tp pusing jgk,mnx2 dya x dk la..oh no...dya ad....huh,,!ok,walau ap yg blaku aq msty truskn jgk...mmg set dlm pala dya akn melenting...msty pya sal ms serah pn da  lama lps kot,jeng3..but it totally miracle!!!Dya smbt aq dgn aisyh...fuh..... lps aq xplain n give that baek pya brg,mmg x de riak mrah,nk melenting,mka x pueh hati,x dk....mmg kalo ikot kn for sure jntung nk luruh beb....gila..gila,,,,,mbey niat aq elok n Allah nk permudah jln...tyme 2 aq nmpk dn rs sdiri bla owg kta,,,nk wat baik insyaallah Allah akn bka jln...plg aq tersentuh,,dya siap doakan aq lg,,,Ya Allah,time tu aq rs lapang sgt.hya Allah yg thu..senyuman dya btol2 ikhlas,dn aq rs sgt2 dihargai...slps tu aq pikir,,mcm mn ea tipu diri sdiri???.....ishhhhh.....pelek.....tipu diri sendiri????? kalo owg tipu kta,,,bodo la kalo x mrh,,,so kalo kta tipu diri sdiri,,,likely,,bodo jgk la kta.......at least,dis tyme i got a new lesson, firstly be frank with urself,then people will respect u...as long as ur  ve strong intention...juz move it... let bygone be bygone larhh..hahaha

yeah..yeah..yeah...dia dh pegi meninggalkan kesan yg aq kta x brpa mdlm laaa....no talks or eyes glance...huhuhuhu..never mine lah...firstly aq qasa mmg slh aq,,n jauh d lubok ati mmg ada gak rs bslh....for sure....tp pikir2 blik kn.. i ve right to do that,,,n dya pn pya hak nak wat cm 2,,,acc masing2 kn...tp yg x brpa sdp cara dya 2,,,,,quite annoying compare to her...opppps!!........come on la........our earth is always round kot....pusing2 muka ne jgak yg nk kna tgk.....be a matured person plez..btol gak ap yg hmba Allah 2 kta ...wat bnda x pikir dh kesan lps 2...dh 2 trus serang aq smpi aq x dn nk telan ayaq liur kot...kot ya pun tya la slow2 jgn dok ikot perasaan amarah yg sntiasa dtunjang syaitan laknatullah 2....yea,, u ve a lot of problem n stimes  it also come from u..right....it ur bizz n i never want to mind ur...so find the best way la how to solve it,,,,yea,,mmg aq x layak nak bg nasihat sbb aq pn x bp nk btol,,,tp kalo ap yg aq ckp ne ad yg btol ap slhnya rndahkn ego utk trima....ap yg pntg respectivity  n show the well mannered to others akn mbuatkan org selesa dn bknya lama2 jd knfus mcm aq.....jd  inilah solusi yg aq tpaksa pilih,,,,,titik!!!!! sng.....aq pn x yah nk wat pro n con aq sdiri.....kalo ikot kelancangan mu kt owg yg aq sgtttttt syg lah,,,,dn dya pn dh x dk kt DUNIA ne lah n  dya pn dlu salu care gila2 sal mu lah,,,,,,,mmg x brapa ad maaf utkmu........tp aq pn manusia biasa yg sntiasa ingin mcari redhaNya,,,so....it ok but  for the last tyme.......dh la 2.... learn how to accept kelemahan diri org lain dn bljr mperbaiki kelemahan diri sdiri.......n frankly aq x reti nk wat2 kering mcm x ad ap yg blaku n itu klemahan aq....i admit.... tp i will try to find the solution as u too maybe........akhir kalam......im sory..n i know our direction after this for sure will change.......::)

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act aq takut bhadapan ngn kenyataan,,,tp nk wat cm mn tulah knyataan,,,,fact ve to face...being a loser smtimes very irritated...how to escape from feel that such suck feeling needed me to be a pretended person....for me it ok be pretend initially so our intention to change will come... slowly n slowly....as long ad sekelumit rsa from deepest our heart nk berubah......yeah,,,,aq akn cuba,,,,dan aq sntiasa keep these words" im own n owe myself"..for sure i ve right on me..but still owe till the end with Him......aq sgt setuju bla owg kta idup ne mcm ats pentas....kalo dgr mmg akn kta direct gna ayat ne,,,then wat derk..aq pn sm la dlu...tp bla aq pikir blik..n imagine,,,kalo kt ats pntas bla ms lma mn pn kt ats stage tu,,,lastly kta akn bhenti jga...it juz an acting and then back to the normal life...mcm la kta kt bumi ne,,,,aggap je cam ats pentas n will back to our destiny for sure...if our acting is good..we will get.the precious n unexpected rewards,,,,,,,so nk x nk aq kna la sntiasa motivated mcm mn nk jd manusia yg sebetulnya...mlaupn kdg kala terslip jgk,,,,,it ok,,juz a normal proses n challenging to reach the perfection....oh yeah,,,,,hahahaha,,,,mcm2,,,,,,,

it juz start.....

when we talk about life.....yeah education will be the first....place in good university will be the main aim,stimes we too snobby to follow the others without care about our ability n need...it true when people said,,why u cant if the the others can do...it true but for me, everyone re different n deserve on their life....moreover be ourself shoud be truly understand.....surely we want smthing benificial for ourself...but if the word be ourself will ruin us,,it is true?? likes postpone wearing the hijab......so stand on ur target,,ignore what people say as long as ur way still remark to syarak n procede until ur get what u want.........if u ve start....juz go on,,,,n i ve it.....

wateva,,,

erm,,,kdg2 kita rs mcm kosg dn sukarnya idup..............we cant denied...it ok for a day..a month...but how the rest,,,,,,,so juz ignore if u able to do that.....but for me it will gone by time,n we dont know when it start n finish...tp rs itu akn dtg semula.............so bagaimana.......sng citer... THAT LIFE N WE GONNA TO FACE IT................